Dark Thoughts

afraid to fly

Experimenting with Pastels

Gluttony

I'm a real girl

Lobotomy

Shhh

Fish Tank

Blue

Screaming

F* You

My Aquarium

Glub Glub

Goldfish

Things Unsaid

Rape face

This girl is drawn from words. I wrote about my experience being abused by my father to make all of the features, which is why I'm calling her Rape Face. This was my first attempt at doing it so I didn't plan anything out at all, just sort of it did it on the fly. I might do more of them, and plan out the writing more. It seems you would need to do it in pencil so you can make it darker for certain spots and then very light writing for lighter shading. It's not super proportional but it was my first attempt. 

It's like I have the experience of being raped written all over my face. 

Baila!

I saw this bumper sticker and got inspired to draw these figures in elongated type shapes. This one I was experimenting with what might look the best, so each girl is different. I realized it looked like they were dancing. 

Long-Stem

This represents the splitting that occurs when you're being assaulted. You try to break yourself off to somehow get away from the experience, but can't. You're still stuck there. 

I love trees and fall colors so why not blend the splitting of Dissociative Identity Disorder with my love of tress, branches, and Fall colors. 

This to me represents the helpfulness of splitting. She breaks apart to go "help" the youngest girl. Sort of like she's being rescued. 

Demon girl

The Voices

Noisy

The absence of sound

She loves me. She loves me not.

"she loves me not"

"She loved me"

Hand Over Mouth series

Assault

Shadowed

Lost

Need

Like Wind

Spilling Out

Split

Bombarded

Veiled

I did the wood burning and sketched it. To me, it's a separation between the mind and body, which is how I feel. A disconnect. Noise. I'm not a face or a person, but brain activity. And the brain activity is all consuming. 

Doing all those vein/tentacle things took forever! 

Halfway there. 

Almost finished, without the veil fabric over the eyes. It looks a little more dry too without the glue finish. 

I cover it with this glue finish and gross my fingers every time that it comes out okay. 

This is probably the closest I've come to a self-portrait. This is my favorite wood art so far .